I don’t think I’ve experienced anything quite as bittersweet as my journey back to New York from Seville. I was eager to go home—especially to see Donald and Leo—but as I walked through Seville’s streets at 6:30 a.m., searching for a spot accessible by cab, my oversized suitcase echoing across the cobblestones, I found myself taking in every view one last time.
The return leg of a trip is never as energizing as the departure. On my way to Seville—on New Year’s Day—I’d enjoyed half-empty planes and plenty of room to stretch out. On the way back, a man-spreader claimed the seat beside me. A woman eager to deplane dropped her luggage on my head.
After landing in Newark and taking an Uber ride home to Brooklyn, I was deposited on the far side of a massive snowbank separating me from my apartment. I heaved my suitcase over it, went inside, and was immediately greeted by Leo’s uncontained enthusiasm. After a month away, I’d half wondered whether he’d remember me.
Still running on adrenaline, I ordered the thing I’d been craving most in Seville: Thai food. I hadn’t finished half of my turmeric beef curry and crab fried rice before I collapsed on the couch, cuddling with Leo. Jet lag woke me at 5:00 a.m., and I booked same-day tickets to New York City Ballet. Donald obliged, and we enjoyed a wonderful matinee featuring Balanchine and Ratmansky.
My time off was both restorative and instructive. There are things I love about being in New York—the diversity of people, food, and the arts—and things I love about being in Europe: a slower pace of life, lower costs, and not hearing quite so much about Trump and his administration’s latest idiocies.
One thing I’m determined not to lose is speaking Spanish. Feeling more comfortable using it was one of the most tangible takeaways from my time in Seville, and I’ve already booked a private tutoring session next week through Preply, a language-learning platform that, unlike Duolingo, pairs you with a tutor for real conversation. A placement test put me at the “Upper Intermediate” level—strong grammatical control with occasional errors, a growing range of concrete and abstract vocabulary, and the ability to express myself with increasing precision.
For now, that feels like enough: a language I want to keep practicing, a city I’m glad to be back in, and another one I already miss.




























































